FREE-TO-RHYME

2010-06-29T18:33:00.000-07:00

i just learned one thing from my own besfren

he said that feeling is just a crush, not love. and love is when there is trust between the two people who have crush on each other. and their trust is based on honesty and loyalty.

and apparently, i belive him.

tahu bila.

2010-02-24T06:09:00.000-08:00

Tuhan itu maha kaya, kalau Dia kata jadi, jadi la
kalau Dia kata vice versa, vice versa la jadinya.

aku tak boleh nak tengok masa depan,
aku juga tak nampak apa akan jadi akan datang.
ye, aku ada mengharap .
tapi aku nak yang terbaik untuk diri sendiri.
kau, aku, dia, mereka. sesiapa saja.

masa itu akan tiba. kita lihat saja.
aku tak reti nak berkata-kata.
tapi hati kata ya.
ia akan jadi juga.
tapi, Dia saja yang tahu bila.

at least.

2010-02-21T08:34:00.001-08:00

for you,

whom i know would not be able to read this post due to certain conditions,

thank you for this feelings.

at least, i know.
:)

pergi M!

2010-02-16T19:16:00.000-08:00

weyy perempuan,

dari saat ni kau bukan lagi BFF aku. and kau boleh pegi mati dengan kehidupan kau dgn kawan2 yg asyik kau jumpe muke same je tiap masa. aku tau ko bosan tapi too bad. at least im better. lagi byk kawan dari kau ! harapkan pandai je lebih. tapi sorry to say la kan, maklumlah kan kau byk sangat so called standard nak kena kau jage. poyo nak mati. lepas ni kalau aku cakap dengan kau pun, bukan aku nak cakap betul2. tapi aku mmg saje nak konon2 baik dengan kau. lantak la kalau kau cakap aku hiprokit ke ape. and one more thing ye, aku da tak nak harapkan ape2 da dari kau. if kau nk mintak tolong dari aku pun ; hmm aku akan pk due tiga kali.

so long perempuan. bye!

gile membara aku dengan kau skang. demit

it's you.

2010-02-15T07:00:00.000-08:00

S.Zaid & J.Dean

I love, watching your every move
trying to get close to you
seems like I'm falling in love
I feel, heaven under my feet
wrapped up in silky sheets
come lay your head down next to me..

It's you who, I give the most to
I'll let you go when you need room
It's you who, I give my heart to
baby be careful, I've only got one

I want to travel inside your mind
and find out what you like
so I can give you what you mean to me
you are a dream come true
my prayers were answered to
I've been searching all my life..

It's you who, I give the most to
I'll let you go when you need room
It's you who, I give my heart to
baby be careful, I've only got one...

I love, watching your every move
trying to get close to you
seems like I'm falling in love
I feel, heaven under my feet
wrapped up in silky sheets
come lay your head down next to me

oh..

It's you who, I give the most to
I'll let you go when you need room
It's you who, I give my heart to
baby be careful, I've only got one...

I've only got one.

for you shuk.
for always being there whenever im in need.

2010-02-07T00:35:00.000-08:00

WE MAKE SENSE.

YES, SENSE.

he sees me

2010-02-06T02:23:00.000-08:00

its all about you my baby boyy.
thank you, thank you.

you brought back the sunlight that has been missing for the past few days.
i thought it will never come back, all i can do is wishing. yes, having a wish lists is a must.
yet, somehow it works for me. i mean, seriously.

im happy for what i have now. cant think much more than this.
this is just nice. yes, just nice. and i love it :)

he sees who am i. he sees what others are too busy or too blind to see.

he sees me.

sad face

2010-02-02T08:33:00.000-08:00

this is pathetic .

tengok orang lain mesra and sweet - sweet.

im jealous.

sad face.

kau tewas gay ass.

2009-12-15T20:53:00.000-08:00

kadang2 tak faham.
kadang2 aku bengang.
selalu sakit hati.
terlebih lebih menyampah.

tolong la BLAHHH dari life aku . boleh tak?

kau kacau jiwa aku.
kau kacau kasih sayang aku dengan si dia.
kau sibukan diri kau antara life aku dengan cinta hati aku.

ahh senang cite kau ni penyibuk. busy body. bajet malaikat. tolong la faham manusia oii.

kalau aku da lari dari kau, bermakna aku da lari jauh2.
kau tak payah nak mengejar dan terkejar2. kau pasti tak berupaya untuk dapat.
banyak lagi manusia kat muka bumi ni. kau kejarla mereka. walaupun lelaki . kau kejar la.
kan muka kau macam gay ass.

aku dah bahagia sekarang. bahagia dengan ape yang aku ada dan dengan ape yang aku punya.
aku tak susah kan hidup kau. dan kauu jangan la nak susah kan hidup aku. kau da tewas.dan tolong lah terima hakikat.

p/s : aku sayang shukri sorang. takde due, tiga atau lebih. okay?

exotic

2009-12-14T21:58:00.001-08:00

BABYYY,

makan steamboat jum?

tak pun ayam penyet, takpun tempat yang kite tak pernah pegi lagi.

nak tak? jumla sayangg.

----alaaahh, macam la bb bace post ni . sad face la ;(

soul cleansing :)

2009-12-11T06:27:00.000-08:00

to my dear BFF--- i love you guys sooo fucking damn much. thanx for everything.i had so much fun n owh tnx tau, especially the Grey jeans that was totally unexpected! xoxo

2009-12-04T09:29:00.000-08:00

okayy two more days to go.

IM ON MY WAITING LIST.

gosh, this is totally pathetic. haha

xoxo

fully hearted

2009-12-04T08:02:00.000-08:00

to my dearly new semester,

here i come.
to abide all my commitment to you,
to prepare my self to actually suffer the pain u will give,
yes my love, i will do anything.
anything that makes you and me happy.

i will also, my dearly new semester,
to love the subjects that you hv intended for me undoubtedly,
to accept all the pressures without any complain.
yes my love, for you i will try.

even its gonna be hard. i try. for you my dearly new semester, lets do it.
you and me.together. at least for this upcoming 4 months ahead.
can you do that? i know you can. you love me dont you?

i know you love me. dont make me look like a fool okay?
thanks my dearly. i appreciate it much.ttyl okay love. xxxx

----- p/s : think im going nuts.

tense up.

2009-08-28T07:35:00.000-07:00

3 assignments, 2 presentations, 3 freaking tests.

all are due in one fucking week.

im so-ooooooooo gonna die.

one year of relationship//

2009-08-17T21:09:00.000-07:00

hello worldwide ;)

as if worwide is reading this thing. oh i know put, u'll read mine sooner or later.

harhar :DDD

btw, its august once again and ramadhan is already around the corner. its been a very very busy month. and anorther busy months to come. with the asgmnt, test and presentations. what more could it be? its been a challenge for me. and i hope i can get through this.and of course with the help of my frens. *angels*

yes can get through it, like my precious relationship with bb :)

finally it has been a year that we are together. since our first meet in may '08 , the friendship move on stronger till the day he asked me to be his girl. it was a very tough decesion to made in regards of my previous life, but sweet enough, he managed to wait :) ohh i love you sayang.

from that day, i know who can lead me to happiness in regards of my love life and future. i just know he's the one :)

baby, happy one year aniversarry.

no matter what happen, i will always be your lil star

and will always love you still. i promise.

*hugs and kisses*

no word can describe this;

2009-08-03T22:25:00.000-07:00

jelousy is ALL OVER me.

searching the lights beneath the sorrow.

2009-08-03T20:57:00.001-07:00

ookaayy. where should i start.

apperantly, i should be reading and learning in my company law class now. somehow, our mdm halyani did not turn up for 3 times in a row from last week's classes. so now, here i am stuck in itd, sigh-ing and thinking for the sake of my future, my feelings and my emotions (that is the purpose of blogging rite? showing emotions?) well, there are basically 3 issues arises :

1. whether i should move on strong or else following the sadness down beneath my heart.

2. whether i should go to land law tutorial at 2pm instead of tomorrow. and;

3. whether i should go to the library in a bit of time instead of sitting here burning up my eyes.

these thing is making me sick. anddd weak . i have no mood in doing anything starting at 8 am in the morning, and i felt totally fuck-tap. pernah tak tibe2 rase macam nak nangis and needed someone you loves to be around all the time? yes, that kind of feelings. and it is so tiring. i tried so hard to pull through it. somehow i still feel the same.

ppl gves advices, keep chering me up. thank you.
but i rather kept it down. till the time passes by.
i rather walk alone. in silent.
and i think i have made up my mind.

firstly, i think i shoud move on and be strong sbb sooner or later it will come to me and happens to do it. i'll try. my very best and if there is ppl who will stuck up their nose to me high i will definitely give my high fist back to them. i promise. ( with my strenght of coz)

secondly, i should be going to the tutorial today because if i finish it today, i will not be bother for tommorow's class anymore.

lastly, i rather stuck here. no mood to walk to the library.

danggg. im off. wanting to searh for the pure ligths**
<3

loan loan and loan.

2009-07-16T22:32:00.000-07:00

bile tahh nak masukkkk :((

jalan mudah?

2009-07-12T23:53:00.001-07:00

nak dapat duet?

usaha laaa sikit. jangan harapkan orang je. patutla orang dengki.

silap org yang dengki ke? takkkkk.

sebab ape? sebab die malasss.

alasan org malas? rasekan diri tak diterima umum.

sebab ape? sebab diri sendiri mmg bermasalah.

jadi org yang baik hati, dermalaahh kat org malas. tak paham la zaman skang ni. hehh

hello new sem :)

2009-07-12T23:17:00.001-07:00

130709 ; monday

new sem da start hari ni. hello new sem :)

rase da besar n makin tuaaa la. haishh.

tapi rase cam smlm baru enroll kat uia neh. tup tup da masuk tahun 3.

bile tanya nenek whether aku membesar dengan cepat ke tak.

selamba je die jawab takk. ok kire tak la besar sgt HAHA

so, everything started fine and okayy. tapi. BIG tapi.

sume class everyday start at 8! donat nye laa.

cam ne tah nak lalui hari2 dgn kelas seawal tu. ayam pun tgh mamai2 kot.

takpelah nk buat cam ne. da nasib.

n n my first day with a flu :(

asyik bersin saje. penat. nak masuk kelas pun nafas ikot mulut. da jadi cam ikan rasenye.

sume org da pandang2 takut berjangkit H1N1. nak takut apee?

selsema bukan simptom H1N1. so chill la. takut sgt.

heh tapi kan ppl tend to take it very seriously.

so cam lebih kurang, CAUTION! jgn dekat dgn die. wtf.

tapi maybe lah kan orng tak nk berjangkit. maklumlah flu kan boleh berjangkit.

okela if tak baik jugak by besok aku g klinik ekk. malasnyee.

k la merepek je lebih. suasana cam malap2 da neh.

sayu je ..

tepu.

2009-07-02T00:27:00.000-07:00

gile tepu neh kat umah hyda aku sorang tak tau nk buat pe.

online gune wireless uitm tapi donat myspace tak leh on sampai kul 6. lagi laaa bosan.

you tube pun tak leh. warggggghhh! :(

suh we buat rujukan kat wikipedia kot kan.

nak search for annubis lah. HAHA

jap lagi pegi umah kecik. sok balik kampung. bye-bye love ones

(for a week je pun)

till then*

hugs//

A day out with bb and poyoness of it ;D

2009-07-01T23:26:00.000-07:00

hari kejadian, rabu ; 010709

oke, it happend yesterday. semalam aku bangun awal. kejut bb. yayy! bb cuti hari ni :)

hehe. gile happy sgt boleh jumpe bb before balik kampung weekends ni. n start holiday for a week. even a week je pun, i'll be total misreable if tak jumpe die. at least la kan boleh jumpe last before holiday (gile gedik hehe)

bb dtg umah hyda around 10.30pg cam tu. awalnye tak penah bb dtg awal amik aku time2 cam ni. hehe selalunye bb dtg around kul 12 ke kul 1 ke.

oke then we terus g sungai wang plaza kat BB, then mkn kat nasi ayam tempat fav :) sedapppp! ala tak mahal sgt pun. so cam boleh la jugakif nk tambah. tapi bb cakp we da semakin gemuk so baik lupekan je la hasrat nak tambah tu. hee

later on we jalan kaki g pavilion. sumpah penat. da tersemput2 da tgh jalan. dgn panas lagi. basah ketiak aku. haishh tapi laratkan la jugak.

memandangkan bb da booked ticket online so we trus la g GSC kat reservation nye lane amik ticket. oke he paid via maybank2u. n die sgt sgt gile lah poyo oke. HAHAHA. tak le blah.

amik tiket gile la awl tp muvie kul 3pm. so we lepak la dulu minum2 kat tempat bajet urban.

sembang2 lepak. normal stuff couple cam we buat. pe lagi. gosssssiiiippp n kutuk org la byk. haha ishh tak elok oke :P habis vanilla latte and da bape batang rokok tah bb hisap (aku suh stop baru nk stop) baru la gerak balik g kat gsc nye. aku ckp kat bb seat released kul 2.30 untuk hall 12. tapi da kul 2.30pm tak menyale2 lagi lampu. donat betul. pas tu another scence poyo die kuar, like this la lebih kurang :

bb : uish ramai gile org beratur. nasib kite da beli tiket awl kan hny kan.

aku : tu ahh, nasib bb da booked.

bb: bese la, booked online pakai maybank2u.tak yah nk beratur2.HAHAHAH

aku: ee poyo siall mamat neh.

dalam hati aku. Ya Allah, poyo gile mamat neh.tpi mmg di takdirkan hari tu untuk we poyo . so tak kessah sgt la kan. haha. tapi bb boleh poyoo. boleh sgtt syg.**

hehe

we tgk ice age3. tah cite dari awl aku tak penah tgk tibe2 tgk yang da no 3, so layankan je. tapi overall bestt la. gelak tak tahan cam nk nagis2 da tgk scence lawak ;DDD

after tgk muvie, to shorten up we blah dari Kl, n lepak tmn paramount :) las pegi time mase kenal2 dulu. then da kapel ni pegi balik. so cam both of us teringat la time zaman2 dulu. sweet je think back about the old times.hehe :) so there i took some random pictures wc i think i i had a sense of art in me. tgk, poyo lagi. haishh :P bak kate bb, kemana2 sja lepas ni mesti ade memori .ye ke b, bb ckp cam ni ke?

HAHA

btw,i'll miss it. tah bile lagi tah nk pegi.

i had a great day with my shuk. he meant the world to me. so much.

amik cuti sume for me. cam nk nagis if ingat2 balik. thanx bb.

i always love you : *

this friday night.

2009-06-18T11:53:00.000-07:00

ok. today supposed buat banner. yes wawasan club nye banner.
wayang pacak.
its on 15hb july. tp kena siakan cpt before taaruf week.penat sgt tak larat. tp nk jugak jadi comittee nye pasal so cam kena la tunjuk muka.

the first few hours were fine, nice and okay.
i had my benjo kat aminah cafe with izat n put. then i started with cutting the alphabets,move on to trace it kat kain. n finally colour it. done. im almost done.

its 10.20pm . and ding dong** . i felt unsafe.
feelings kan. no one knows when it will come and go.
bak kate put, because i was restless. emmm maybee.
tpi im not sure myself...(sebenarnya sure kot hahah :D)

btw, to shorten up things, i made up the conclusion. the core of the topic it self and the ding dongs plus the unsafe feelings. yes, we do have pros and contras in life and we sholud, i repeat SHOULD be tolerable.or else, things will get worst. trust me :)

p/s : to whom it may concern, ur the most amazing creature ever live in this world. and i respect u for what u've done.

thank you <3

Newly born//

2009-06-16T23:47:00.000-07:00

hye ppl :)
as this is the newest highly brand new post. i should say this is a show off.
HAHA

oke who cares the shit out of it kan? so i ges its time to move on.
till then .
hugs*